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realieze
04:27
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We were taught everything all wrong
We were taught to sing the same song
Never deviate or you'll be thrown to the wolves
Well, growing older and stepping back,
I can see this mess unwrapped
Politics can come in any shape or form
"You're no longer welcome here
And if you will not disappear,
We'll shove you in the cracks,
We control you with fear.
We'll keep you stowed away for the words you choose to say
Rebellion in our eyes and we'll project you as a lie"
Censorship will get you nowhere
All your burdens I do bear.
Give me some answers stop blowing you hot air.
Yes, I'm angry. I'm an outcast, you and I: such a contrast.
Am I the monster I feel you see?
Or am I crazy?
Is it just me?
Stay fast asleep,
The world belongs to me
And it's such a big place
But I've found my small space
The smoke enters my lungs
And I exhale the pain
And there's something so soothing about the rain
We take these words right out of this book
And write them into our own mistook
Hooked on our own ideals and relative truths that we feel
We don't feel the things that we claim and then we all wonder who's to blame?
Well watch our little worlds we built get flushed down the drain.
We live our lives in the shadows, casting judgement.
We're so hollow.
Look at the disgusting pathetic people that we've become.
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no_evidence
05:43
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Ignite my bones
Just watch me burn
Ignite my bones
I've gotta learn
Today's a new day and I feel bad
I'm gonna give in; this darkness makes me glad
Strip you down so I can see your soul
I don't care watch bury myself inside of this hole
I just put my head down and repeat til I'm done
The number doesn't matter when it's already one
Just give yourself to me and I will take you over
But I don't want your head or your heart cuz when everything's over...
Ignite my bones
Just watch me burn
Ignite my bones
I've gotta learn
Set me on fire
I am a liar
Set me on fire
I'm a liar
Today's a new day and I feel bad
Frustration at myself, oh god, I'm making me mad
Slowly becoming a creature of the night
But when the full moon's out, the taste of your blood gives me delight
I sink my teeth with no remorse
Of my regret and of my shame I am the source
I’ll never do it again except the next time when
I get a chance to forget everything and do it all again
Now watch this fall, just watch me fall, just watch me crumble apart
Don't trust me because I don't trust myself.
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Serenity
05:00
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"Don’t let anyone change you"
That’s what I knew
But I lived too quiet while the fear grew inside
I guess I couldn’t let anyone know who I really was because I didn’t fit a mold
But that news is old
I’m in a place now where I can separate myself
From the fear of my perception; now I’m taken off the shelf
Where I used to live; hidden away
Because I was too edgy, too sharp, for the dullness I’ve slain
Now finally able to fly free
I once was blinded, now I see
Indeed
I can finally be
The man I’m growing to be
I’m comfortable with my being
I’m comfortable being sensitive and singing
I rest assured knowing I’m in control of me
I’m not embarrassed being different, because I’m just me
Libertated from oppression because the chains that I wore
Are in an empty room in my past on the floor
I’ve got an idea of who I am
What was grasping at nothing
Has finally met a hand
I’m holding on as it pulls me through
To the future me and the future you
We all are happy we’re finally alive
Without the worry of others that causes strife
I feel too good, I feel alright
It once was dark, but I think I see a light
(Everything’s coming around)
I'll always be living one step from stepping off
It's how I'm raised; it's who I am so go ahead and scoff
Because residing on the edge, you can see much more
So just stay in the cage you made with ignorance galore
You built the walls around yourself and now nobody can come in
Into your perfect little circle where you’re peeling off your skin
You’re ripping the Body to pieces
Killing the bride like Lambesis
And I don’t put on a facade
because I’m happy being me with my flaws
That’s not to say there’s no room improve some each day
But I’m hitting it head on instead of running away
Tell me, do you know how liberating it is to be completely true
To not a single human being, other than you?
I come right outta the gates wearing my heart on my sleeve
Until I’m met where I am by the person to whom I’ll cleave
I can’t wait to see who I’ll be, or my wife is gonna be
But until that day comes, I’ll just keep finding me.
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drugs pt 2
04:41
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Sitting in the Shower
05:36
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I don’t want the day to come
Where you’re not here, where I came from
I’ll miss the opportunity I have
To hear your voice and stories about dad
But someday the one who gave me care
Will be dead and gone and I cannot bear
That thought makes me shake inside
Becuase I’m just your little boy deep down inside
But I don’t want to move on when that day comes
I love you too much
So don’t leave in a rush
I’m not ready for you to go
Even though it might not be close
Two young lovers raising another
The best you knew how
You hit some rough spots, but turned it around.
It all turned out okay.
And I think I turned out okay
I wish you could stay because you going away is a thought I just can’t take My bones quake
I know we all have to say goodbye some day
And I don’t want there to be things I didn’t say
I’m sitting down in the shower and I’m just thinking
I’m just thinking.
Honestly this music thing would never take flight,
Without your push despite a couple of fights
Too shy to try, but you showed me I could fly,
If I’d spread my wings and fall, I would rise
Always challenging me to be bold and I value it more now that I’m older
I don't say it enough and I don't lead on
But I appreciate you and the lessons you've taught
I remember mom with a cigarette
And I song you sang me I'll never forget
You said “Mason my son I love you
Mason my son I care.”
Well I know you love me
And I know you’ll always be there (You won’t always be there)
I owe you a lot Because you’ve given so much
Sacrifice sometimes doesn’t say enough
We don’t see eye-to-eye on a lot
But I love you; after all you’re the only dad I’ve got
I’ll always be the funnier one
But you’re a father who taught laughter to his son
I’m sitting down in the shower and I’m just thinking
Once a little girl not far from her daddy's arms
But now you're miles away from Ohio’s farms
Having a hard time cutting the cord
Because most of the time you find yourself bored.
A sister her brother once couldn't stand
But now he's happy you two have come together as friends
I love to see your pretty little mind open up
It’s beautiful and you are too
You’re beautiful inside and out
Except when you pout
Sister. Brother. Father. Mother.
We love to hate, and hate to love each other
I think family’s overrated,
But I guess there's beauty in being related.
Family made me all I am.
Despite our differences, we are friends
I know as long as you’re here, you’ll always be near
Sitting in the shower and this is all becoming clear
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sixish
04:01
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God, where have you been?
I’m drowning down here in a world of sin.
I don’t have anyone to confide in.
I’m losing and I can't even begin
To put to paper or fill some ears with how I feel
I can’t stand by my claim being real
The Pariah, the fighter, the nighttime-hider
And all of these (self inflicted) afflictions I hide em inside of me...
Myself and I
Just trying to get by
Without a chance for the words you say
I always finding myself running away
But I can’t swim without a light
But I’m stupid so watch me try and try
Drowning in my foolishness
Will there be an end to this?
The water is rising
I’m lost in the tide
I’m crying out for you to
Make it subside
Okay, I give up I wanna be done running
Because I'm of tired feeling like I'm done in
It's been a long time since my feet have touched shore
Bring me back, I need to be restored
Speak to me I need to feel,
sometimes I question whether you’re real
I’m so confused in this stupid head of mine,
But don’t expect me to tell anyone on my decline
It’s too hard to be transparent, when you’re falling apart
Even though no one’s all together, we’re all in parts
And pieces scattered all about
But we keep a lid on every one of our doubts
And every one of our fears, because it’s hard to be real
And we get so scared, we become austere
Because hiding out of worry doesn’t lend us any comfort
So send me a boat, so I can live in your abundance.
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realieze (Instrumental)
04:27
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Serenity (Instrumental)
05:03
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sixish (Instrumental)
04:01
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Real Eyes (FMK remix)
04:23
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I’m just a little boy in a big, big world
Tryna be seen but I’m always a blur.
I don't have a voice, cuz something's lodged in my throat
I stand too short, never seen; never heard.
With a gag in my mouth.
And a rope around my feet.
These bound hands
Prevent me to eat.
And I’m so very hungry.
Hungry for truth
And hungry to be heard by anyone like or unlike you.
But no one ever listens. I have amounts to say
But when I try to speak, people tend to move away.
I used to have more friends,
But now I like so few
I finally found a close couple
And that’s thanks to you.
Thank you to the people who aren’t who they seem
Thank you to the people who judge and deceive
Thank you for showing me who you really are
I broke your chains now watch me fly away far.
Loner. Sometimes lonely.
I can count on my hands how many people really know me.
Friends before family.
That’s how it’s always been.
Black sheep’s misunderstood time and time again.
I know you love me but do you like me?
Do you accept me as I am or am I a liability?
Is it too late to recreate what never was?
A childhood full of life lessons never learned because
Rarely modeling the words in your dome.
No comfort in my house, away from it is where I find my home.
Never connecting on a level deeper than skin.
I don’t despise my childhood as much as what came after it.
These are the days I appreciate solitude
Partially introvert, the other being away from you.
I don’t hate you, I swear.
I love you, but I’m angry.
Maybe when I grow up and mature, things will be dandy
Black Hoodie, shifty eyes, back seat of a church
Trying to hear God, but all I hear is the sermon:
Words that are worthless, teaching me to be nervous, I learn to act good cuz God's around the corner...
He's lurking; always, always watching
Eye on the pyramid, fear is their doctrine
Indoctrinated by the very thing they claim to hate
The devil is their master, they're enslaved by the state
Freedom; free doom to them
A masterful deception like the watergate scam
I am what I am; an anomaly
That wasn't part of the plan they know that's me
The devil tried to hold me down and shut me up
Tried to numb me out with the smoke and stuff
But I've been quiet for too long
God gave me words and they're coming out too strong
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sixish (FMK remix)
05:36
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Not a Freestyle
03:20
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One step, two step, I never could do it.
Never much of a dancer, but boy, I know how to groove it
Move it, if you feel it, move it if you don’t.
Nobody likes you around when you ain’t down to get up.
Or up to get down,
White boy makes a sound,
the kind of sound so sick, my jungle fever’s shut down
I shatter light with this darkness
I put that fear in your heartses
Now watch me tear this up like paper while I rip you apart-ses
Every word out my mouth is precious
But more important than Precious
because an overrated movie’s got nothing to with this
My flow is slow as Widney
But as hot as Whitney
If I left before I started, I’d be Drake, miss me.
But I’m here to play, and I’ll stay til the end,
So just call me 9/11, because you never forget
Just a stupid little kid from Amish country Ohio,
Making music outta VA, momma, I am a psycho
But I wouldn’t hurt a fly, because peta would rather eat a
human alive before they ever let an animal die
It’s foolish to put us on the same level as slugs,
But, tell me, can an animal handle a chamber and slugs?
No salt for the bug’s life, you’re salty cuz I’m always right
If I got wrong, then I guess I’d still be mister right
I do this rap thing for fun,
I make it silly, make it dumb
I never take it serious, because I’ve already won
The competition hasn’t happened because I would smack it
Like some shorts with a little booty peeking right out the back it’s
Like a really hot day,
but it’s all okay,
cuz I’m cooler than an AC that has been running all day
While you were away out your house for some hours
I’m not just raining you with words, or parading, Imma dowse you
Better hope what you’re wearing is not a white blouse,
But it wouldn’t be any different cuz I can see through you
Any day of the week, you can catch me on fleek
But I can’t lie I had to look that up before I could speak it
Without sounding stupid or saying some regrettable
Or having an accident like Janet, unforgettable
I’m just making a song that goes on with no point
But I’m so heaven-sent, that this rap can anoint
Or take your soul and save it from hell,
So peachy, like Mario, you all gonna be Saved by the (Bell)
I’m for real. I’m Pharrel
I’m a nerd. I’m absurd
Have you heard a single word that I’ve said
I haven’t slurred
I’m fully sober
Always lucky on my own, forget the clover
But I like to smoke a black, so you can call me a clove-er
Cripsin Glover, I mean Glover
Should really be in some other
Movies because he’s got a lot of talent to be discovered
But he’s not the first dude who will die semi-known
A lot of people are blind cuz they just Watch The Throne
Shoulda known there’s no success if you ain’t talking about molly
or a gang or banging a girl last week named Holly
I don’t know why I try, I don’t why I-I
Get nervous at the thought of showing off my
My talents, I am talented, I know I’ve been blessed
But my personality’s too shy to be a guy I detest.
I wanna be discovered, but I’ll do nothing about it
Because I am a loser. a baby in a corner. just pouting.
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